words

hey world, i don know wat to say.. i just feel like writing down words at this point of time...i dont know wat im doin at time, i felt lost for abit..

fire cools, water turned into ice.. small little things back then is good enough to make me feel excited..
but major things now dont make me feel happy at all.. everything just seems boring and less exciting..
a slower pace in every aspect.

ppl says : when u tend think bad, bad things are going to happen.
think on the bright side and make the positive choice to help u get wat u wan...

wat happen now, is going to take awhile for things to be okay.. i dont expect much, as long everything is in a peaceful state...

i will make changes... i have to.. i promised..
May God give me strength and wisdom to succeed..

Just recently, i started listening to some classical and jazz music..i dont know why coz i never like these kinda songs be4, just fell in love with some of it when my friend played them...
especially Kenny G, beautiful music.. just calm yr mind... u just have to sit down quietly and really listen.. 

I actually downloaded the whole album.. lol.. 

i felt like an uncle now.. lol

those beautiful moments......

the moment

waiting for you

chaoz..

see ya

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errr..

errr...

finally, it occur; 

like a bottle of liquor, 

makes u motion blur; 

till i cant see her, 

coz this is wat she prefer, 

i cant do anything to demur,

is like a car without a chauffeur,

a fine art without a connoisseur,

hopefully those moments can recur,

a time machine that can transfer.

this my new challenge to conquer.

i will always hope the best for everything but we'll see how God's plan for us.
i'll miss those times,

forgive and forget.. lets go

chaoz

nitez
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Ambiguity

hey world, life is pretty good for me so far, most of things that bothered my mind have settled down for good, at least i had ans for most questions..

In fact, im glad that the ans given was the one i wanted, i felt great and colours starting to paint and lighten my life everyday..
i felt good no doubt...

However, is time to face the truth, u cant aspect good news to come only, coz bad news may followed.. this is yet again pop another situation for me.. but this time is clearer, and i know wat i gonna do..

Goal post was used to be blurry, so shooting was just a waste of time and it goes out of range, now the fog is passed, is time to shoot for the goal..
i dont know how many defenders there may be to prevent me to goal but i know is tough and rough road ahead of me..

GOAL!

Plus, is 4-5 years is such a long time for many many things to happen that may just the my course of goal, maybe as a attacker, i was injured badly from game had to stop or the defender is just too strong for me to go thru..

Alright, lets talk something else, recently i have noticed my style of writing a blog have changed dramatically, i dont know where went wrong, i just felt it..

"wat the hell kokhou, u trying to be a philosopher ah?, wat a stupid football game is this that u are trying to say??" said any readers who read this

Maybe, life in india just change a little small part of me i guess or just the people here..

in another 19 more days, im officially back in KL, im so fking excited!!! yeah!
the 

1st thing i'll do is to eat Malaysian food and 

the last thing i'll do is to forget about you* (too bad, food still came first.. XD)

wink to SV ;-)

Loving wat im having and my life so far.. thank lord for everything =)

good night humans
chaoz

ps: the word fking stand for freaking not fcuk(the correct spelling of this word)

my last pic be4 i go bald =D

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A hint

hey people, how's yr life? i didnt blog for quite a while now.. just kinda like wanna update wats happening in my life..

A hint, a clue direct you toward the right track on the answer for your question.. u'll need this so much when u have no idea on the question that need to be answer..
the worse part is, u tried hard to seek for it but most of the time u will fail or it takes a long time to find out..

they say " The weakest side of Romeo is when he is in front of Juliet"

alright, everything seems pretty fine..

The pace of life recently was pretty slow, just plain simple.. pretty much like monotonous..
was used to make a big deal of the internal exam but im so used it now.. lol

All i want now is just to go back Malaysia and be with my family, is bout 33 days more to my break back to Malaysia, i cant wait for it!! lol

i need some motivation to move me... 

and they say "the most powerful motivation known to man is the power of love".. Dato Lawrence
show me some love baby!! 

Good night people,
everything will be cool..

chaoz...
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happiness

hey world, how's life ppl? have you been having a good time? maybe u are having a bad time.. any other way, i wish all of u having a calm and peaceful time and spending time with yr family and yr love ones

so my topic today is happiness.. do u know wat is the most important in life, is being happy and going for things that makes u happy.. at the end of the day, u will feel u are worth while living.. however, happiness is something determined varies from ppl to ppl.. some ppl may think that having lots of money means that they are achieving the maximum happiness in life.. some are just as simple as to be with the person u wanna be with..
or it may be just a simple Spicy Chicken Mc Deluxe** damn, i miss that so much now, lol, MCD here like shit..

however, it just came thru my mind today that " happiness can be just as simple as seeing others happy".. which means u got happiness not becoz something good happen to you but just knowing the person u care is happy, u are happy..
maybe i should rephrase, "happiness can be just as simple as seeing you happy, coz u matters to me"..

i don know wat im saying already, alright, im done for today..
i hope im ready to face my next challenge..

oh yeah im cool with challenges..


nitez! homosapien

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never knew

hey world, wanted to post for christmas, new year 2012 back then but i was too lazy haha.. but i still got time to wish everyone a happy chinese new year, Gong xi fa chai!!

Is been quite some time that i have been inactive in blogging, mainly because there are plenty of exams and work to do, and im always sick.. as in im always having flu and cough..

Alright, lets back on topic, how i wish i can know what is going to happen in future, because for every decision i made now may actually make a big difference in my life, is now or never.
these choices is not yr usual ones, because we usually make decision based on the consequences of the action. if it is a bad one then u know wat to do, simple.. but what if both doesnt tell u exactly how the consequences go? as in both doensnt show negative effect.. if u und what im saying

that would be frustrating, i hate to be in this position, making me to think so hard and now i have to stay put from both decision and let God to decide..

i think some ppl may say im just trying to escape from it and yes i think i am.. coz i know one day the same ques going to ask me again and i gonna scratch my head again to ans the ques...

im 20 this year, rmb 10 years back, im still in my primary school being one of the naughtiest kid in class.. i was from the last class, did badly for exams and all.. still rmb i was called to sit beside the teacher desk right infront so that the teacher can keep an eye on me.. lol

and now, im in india doing my dentistry degree, so very diff environment.
anyway, i should stop thinking..

u guys must be wondering now, what is the tough decision that u have to make now??
i think i cant reveal it now coz it is internet which is basically the whole world.. so no privacy actually.. haha

How?
I dont always ask the question how,
but it really confused my mind now,
makes feel like im an insane cow,
it feels like im a helpless pow,
what about the times i made my vows,
what if my decision is not allow?
negative response like bow wow,
i may try to go thru all with a strong plow,
Give me sign i need i'll give u my kowtow,
we'll see how
ok , ciao~~ =D

eventhou im late but once again..
Happy New Year 2012, Happy Ponggal, Happy Chinese New Year
Happy Thaipusam next week

oh ya, i may wanna go bald.. lol we'll see haha =D
see yall ppl..

with love
khz

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scrambled

I just read my previous post, noticed i have lots of wording and grammar error.. im just too lazy to read again once i write a blog.. nvm.. not important..

so recently, there is this movie that i have watched not long ago.. and seriously, i love it..
it is a cute, innocent, sweet, romantic movie.. is definitely a chick's flick.. so, couples out there is recommended to watch this movie =D

"you are the apple of my eye"

                                                         "You are the apple of my eye"

It will really bring you back to the times in yr school life.. trust me =)

Alright, done with movies..

U know wad, lets talk bout girls.. is been some time i dont talk bout them =P
It has been a FACT that girls are complicated, but u know, im cool with that..
Back then in high school, i know girls too.. is all the same, im cool only, i feel very relax and chill everytime i talk to them.. i dont have to think watever i wanna say.. just spill it out..

But in here, is a diff story, girls nowadays are very sensitive, i have to think twice whether or not to say certain things.. because there's only like 25 of malaysian in our batch, so we are pretty close to each other.. and there's always some internal problems here and there..

And u will see all fb emoing post all or certain type of post like .. For example : "i dont care what ppl think bout me, this is me".. something like that, u know wat i mean rite..( i just made example myself, it came out from my brain)

Maybe is just my problem i guess, lol.. But i still love them,.. i will end up with one of them anywayz =)





ps : Statement above is not pointing finger to anyone, if u appear to be a girl, it doesnt mean is you, im writing this based on majority of girls, so for girls reading this, u are the minority ones.. =D


Done with girls,




Studies is pretty shitty nowadays.. exam, test, hmkwork and oral test are coming continuously every week, we didnt have a proper time to rest and chill..  
At this moment, i suppose to study for my open viva session tomoro, some pictures to draw..

i dont know why, im dont have the motivation to do work properly nowadays, which is a very bad thing.. haiz..i have to pick up my pace asap...

Plus, there's not much of entertainment, shopping mall is far from here.. so i spend most of my time playing basketball and gym..
how nice if i can just lie down on my bedroom in Malaysia and eat proper food and relax..just imagining it makes me feel good.."sigh..:

i think i will start posting blog once a while and more frequent.. just wanna jot down some part of my life here.. hahaha

had to go study now.. lol.

see u ppl.. chiaoz =)



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