周逸涵-思味特Love

如果 我沒有遇見你
那麼 我現在在哪裡
喜歡 我和你在一起
就算 活在兩人世界裡

愛你 愛上你的孩子氣
愛你 愛上你的大道理
愛你 就算會經歷暴風雨
還是 不離不棄陪著你

我習慣 爭吵後哭著說想你
我習慣 噩夢後靠著你背脊
我習慣 和你偶爾撒嬌 嘟起嘴巴的你

好奇怪 對你會越來越依賴
好害怕 害怕有一天失去你
不想在 漆黑的夜裡沒有你

愛你 愛上你的孩子氣
愛你 愛上你的大道理
愛你 就算會經歷暴風雨
還是 不離不棄陪著你

我習慣 爭吵後哭著說想你
我習慣 噩夢後靠著你背脊
我習慣 和你偶爾撒嬌 嘟起嘴巴的你

好奇怪 對你會越來越依賴
好害怕 害怕有一天失去你
不想在 漆黑的夜裡沒有你

我習慣 爭吵後哭著說想你
我習慣 噩夢後靠著你背脊
我習慣 和你偶爾撒嬌 嘟起嘴巴的你

好奇怪 對你會越來越依賴
好害怕 害怕有一天失去你
不想在 漆黑的夜裡沒有你


=)
我没后悔过遇见你，对， 就是你 =D

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My Life

Hey world, i have not been blogging for almost 3 months now, hahaha, i had so much to do and so little time,

there time i need to do for work,
time to spend with my friends,
some personal time for myself,
time for the family,
finally im free to blog

OH yea, btw friends, im officially in second year now!!!! YEA Man.. wooohooo,
First year was pretty darn tough coz is like plenty to read and memorise.. I manage to pass everything without failing any subject. Not really something im really proud of coz i was hoping to get a distinction at least in one subject, oh well, at least im still in second year now so non of that matters to me now..just gonna do my best this year and score properly this time.. =D

Through these few months, it was a short 3-4 months, but lots of things have happened,
there are times where i had lots of fun,
there times that argued so  bad with my friends,
and got screwed up by lecturers, and many more..

But through these few months, i felt like i learn a lot, from academics to socializing and self enlightening..
I dont know why, my mind kept telling me, KokHou, "changes is needed, u need to do something about it"
I want greater achievements, i want to be better in every aspect that im doing..
such feeling is so strong that i never felt like this be4.

I want to be different and unique..

Up next, yup, im single now, single is pretty good i think, less stress, no commitments, no promises, no complications, good, but yet again, sometimes once awhile i feel a lilttle lonely at times,
Personally, i think falling in love is such a beautiful feeling and it can make u the happiest person on Earth.. hahaha, However, getting a right person will be such a difficult task coz everyone is diff with diff personality, attitude, appearance or watever it is.. That one person that u are comfortable with, feel comfortable talking with, feel great when being with them.. Just gonna wait for the right one to appear..

Maybe God is just trying to tell me that this is not the right time...

What i used to do last time is, i will usually set goals and write it down in the blog..
this time im not going to write anything, however i will only write it down once i achieve it.. and i will post a video or picture watever to prove my success in things i want.. hahaha

I felt this would be better coz most of the time i wrote it down on the blog and fail to achieve them, so i just wan to d it the other way round.. hhahaa..

Change, I want change for the better,

A new KokHou..

Good Night
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JJ Lin - (學不會) never learnt

JJ Lin -  (學不會) never learnt

你的痛苦 我都心疼 想为你解决
nǐ de tòng kǔ wǒ dōu xīn téng xiǎng wéi nǐ jiě jué

挡开流言 紧握你手 想飞奔往前

dǎng kāi liú yán jǐn wò nǐ shǒu xiǎng fēi bēn wǎng qián

我相信爱 能证明一切
wǒ xiāng xìn ài néng zhèng míng yī qiē

够真心 会超越时间
gòu zhēn xīn huì chāo yuè shí jiān

多付出 也多了喜悦 让幸福蔓延
duō fù chū yě duō le xǐ yuè ràng xìng fú màn yán

总是学不会 再聪明一点
zǒng shì xué bù huì zài cōng míng yī diǎn

记得自我保护 必要时候讲些 善意谎言
jì de zì wǒ bǎo hù bì yào shí hòu jiǎng xiē shàn yì huǎng yán

总是学不会 真爱也有现实面
zǒng shì xué bù huì zhēn ài yě yǒu xiàn shí miàn

不是谁情愿 就能够解决
bú shì shéi qíng yuàn jiù néng gòu jiě jué

一次争吵 一个心结 累积着改变
yī cì zhēng chǎo yī gè xīn jié lèi jī zhe gǎi biàn

内心疏远 足够秒杀 外表多浓烈
nèi xīn shū yuǎn zú gòu miǎo shā wài biǎo duō nóng liè

才发现爱 不代表一切
cái fā xiàn ài bù dài biǎo yī qiē

再真心 也会被阻绝
zài zhēn xīn yě huì bèi zǔ jué

这世界 天天有诡雷 随时会爆裂
zhè shì jiè tiān tiān yǒu guǐ léi suí shí huì bào liè

还是学不会 少浪漫一点
hái shì xué bù huì shǎo làng màn yī diǎn

拼命着想的事 未必带来感动 或被感谢
pīn mìng zhuó xiǎng de shì wèi bì dài lái gǎn dòng huò bèi gǎn xiè

还是学不会 解释我最伤
hái shì xué bù huì jiě shì wǒ zuì shāng

最累痛死都不愿 怪谁
zuì lèi tòng sǐ dōu bù yuàn guài shéi

把每段痴情苦恋 在此刻排列面前
bǎ měi duàn chī qíng kǔ liàn zài cǐ kè pái liè miàn qián

也感觉 不埋怨
yě gǎn jué bù mán yuàn

只怀念总是学不会 再聪明一点
zhī huái niàn zǒng shì xué bù huì zài cōng míng yī diǎn

记得自我保护 必要时候讲些 善意谎言
jì de zì wǒ bǎo hù bì yào shí hòu jiǎng xiē shàn yì huǎng yán

不是学不会 只是觉得爱 太美
bú shì xué bù huì zhī shì jué de ài tài měi

值得去沉醉 流泪
zhí de qù chén zuì liú lèi

a very soothing meaningful song

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words

hey world, i don know wat to say.. i just feel like writing down words at this point of time...i dont know wat im doin at time, i felt lost for abit..

fire cools, water turned into ice.. small little things back then is good enough to make me feel excited..
but major things now dont make me feel happy at all.. everything just seems boring and less exciting..
a slower pace in every aspect.

ppl says : when u tend think bad, bad things are going to happen.
think on the bright side and make the positive choice to help u get wat u wan...

wat happen now, is going to take awhile for things to be okay.. i dont expect much, as long everything is in a peaceful state...

i will make changes... i have to.. i promised..
May God give me strength and wisdom to succeed..

Just recently, i started listening to some classical and jazz music..i dont know why coz i never like these kinda songs be4, just fell in love with some of it when my friend played them...
especially Kenny G, beautiful music.. just calm yr mind... u just have to sit down quietly and really listen.. 

I actually downloaded the whole album.. lol.. 

i felt like an uncle now.. lol

those beautiful moments......

the moment

waiting for you

chaoz..

see ya

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errr..

errr...

finally, it occur; 

like a bottle of liquor, 

makes u motion blur; 

till i cant see her, 

coz this is wat she prefer, 

i cant do anything to demur,

is like a car without a chauffeur,

a fine art without a connoisseur,

hopefully those moments can recur,

a time machine that can transfer.

this my new challenge to conquer.

i will always hope the best for everything but we'll see how God's plan for us.
i'll miss those times,

forgive and forget.. lets go

chaoz

nitez
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Ambiguity

hey world, life is pretty good for me so far, most of things that bothered my mind have settled down for good, at least i had ans for most questions..

In fact, im glad that the ans given was the one i wanted, i felt great and colours starting to paint and lighten my life everyday..
i felt good no doubt...

However, is time to face the truth, u cant aspect good news to come only, coz bad news may followed.. this is yet again pop another situation for me.. but this time is clearer, and i know wat i gonna do..

Goal post was used to be blurry, so shooting was just a waste of time and it goes out of range, now the fog is passed, is time to shoot for the goal..
i dont know how many defenders there may be to prevent me to goal but i know is tough and rough road ahead of me..

GOAL!

Plus, is 4-5 years is such a long time for many many things to happen that may just the my course of goal, maybe as a attacker, i was injured badly from game had to stop or the defender is just too strong for me to go thru..

Alright, lets talk something else, recently i have noticed my style of writing a blog have changed dramatically, i dont know where went wrong, i just felt it..

"wat the hell kokhou, u trying to be a philosopher ah?, wat a stupid football game is this that u are trying to say??" said any readers who read this

Maybe, life in india just change a little small part of me i guess or just the people here..

in another 19 more days, im officially back in KL, im so fking excited!!! yeah!
the 

1st thing i'll do is to eat Malaysian food and 

the last thing i'll do is to forget about you* (too bad, food still came first.. XD)

wink to SV ;-)

Loving wat im having and my life so far.. thank lord for everything =)

good night humans
chaoz

ps: the word fking stand for freaking not fcuk(the correct spelling of this word)

my last pic be4 i go bald =D

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A hint

hey people, how's yr life? i didnt blog for quite a while now.. just kinda like wanna update wats happening in my life..

A hint, a clue direct you toward the right track on the answer for your question.. u'll need this so much when u have no idea on the question that need to be answer..
the worse part is, u tried hard to seek for it but most of the time u will fail or it takes a long time to find out..

they say " The weakest side of Romeo is when he is in front of Juliet"

alright, everything seems pretty fine..

The pace of life recently was pretty slow, just plain simple.. pretty much like monotonous..
was used to make a big deal of the internal exam but im so used it now.. lol

All i want now is just to go back Malaysia and be with my family, is bout 33 days more to my break back to Malaysia, i cant wait for it!! lol

i need some motivation to move me... 

and they say "the most powerful motivation known to man is the power of love".. Dato Lawrence
show me some love baby!! 

Good night people,
everything will be cool..

chaoz...
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happiness

hey world, how's life ppl? have you been having a good time? maybe u are having a bad time.. any other way, i wish all of u having a calm and peaceful time and spending time with yr family and yr love ones

so my topic today is happiness.. do u know wat is the most important in life, is being happy and going for things that makes u happy.. at the end of the day, u will feel u are worth while living.. however, happiness is something determined varies from ppl to ppl.. some ppl may think that having lots of money means that they are achieving the maximum happiness in life.. some are just as simple as to be with the person u wanna be with..
or it may be just a simple Spicy Chicken Mc Deluxe** damn, i miss that so much now, lol, MCD here like shit..

however, it just came thru my mind today that " happiness can be just as simple as seeing others happy".. which means u got happiness not becoz something good happen to you but just knowing the person u care is happy, u are happy..
maybe i should rephrase, "happiness can be just as simple as seeing you happy, coz u matters to me"..

i don know wat im saying already, alright, im done for today..
i hope im ready to face my next challenge..

oh yeah im cool with challenges..


nitez! homosapien

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never knew

hey world, wanted to post for christmas, new year 2012 back then but i was too lazy haha.. but i still got time to wish everyone a happy chinese new year, Gong xi fa chai!!

Is been quite some time that i have been inactive in blogging, mainly because there are plenty of exams and work to do, and im always sick.. as in im always having flu and cough..

Alright, lets back on topic, how i wish i can know what is going to happen in future, because for every decision i made now may actually make a big difference in my life, is now or never.
these choices is not yr usual ones, because we usually make decision based on the consequences of the action. if it is a bad one then u know wat to do, simple.. but what if both doesnt tell u exactly how the consequences go? as in both doensnt show negative effect.. if u und what im saying

that would be frustrating, i hate to be in this position, making me to think so hard and now i have to stay put from both decision and let God to decide..

i think some ppl may say im just trying to escape from it and yes i think i am.. coz i know one day the same ques going to ask me again and i gonna scratch my head again to ans the ques...

im 20 this year, rmb 10 years back, im still in my primary school being one of the naughtiest kid in class.. i was from the last class, did badly for exams and all.. still rmb i was called to sit beside the teacher desk right infront so that the teacher can keep an eye on me.. lol

and now, im in india doing my dentistry degree, so very diff environment.
anyway, i should stop thinking..

u guys must be wondering now, what is the tough decision that u have to make now??
i think i cant reveal it now coz it is internet which is basically the whole world.. so no privacy actually.. haha

How?
I dont always ask the question how,
but it really confused my mind now,
makes feel like im an insane cow,
it feels like im a helpless pow,
what about the times i made my vows,
what if my decision is not allow?
negative response like bow wow,
i may try to go thru all with a strong plow,
Give me sign i need i'll give u my kowtow,
we'll see how
ok , ciao~~ =D

eventhou im late but once again..
Happy New Year 2012, Happy Ponggal, Happy Chinese New Year
Happy Thaipusam next week

oh ya, i may wanna go bald.. lol we'll see haha =D
see yall ppl..

with love
khz

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